Yay!!!

I've been promoted in conjuction to my conformation after the probation period. 6 months has passed so easily, and the first day I reported to work in this company was still so vivid in my memory as though it was just yesterday. Everyone was quite surprised that months has gone and I'm now wearing uniform already... Oh, the uniform, let us not dwell much about it or else this will be endless.

 

Anyway, I've already updated half of the story last week, if I'm not wrong.

 

Let me update you the second half of the story now. Thursday, if I'm not wrong, I went to talk to my superior about the increment. I braved myself with a deep breath and knock the door and went in, said my piece, came out and walk away with a sigh of relief. Not relief about what I've told her or the fact that she'll look into this matter, but more on the fact that I've already said what I wish to convey, rather than being a coward and keep it to myself.

 

However, after 2 weeks, what I've expected happened. Although she did look into this matter and did some adjustment, however, the sum wasn't really to my expectation and I was quite disappointed. The end result was just something to appease me after the conversation. It does alter the fact that I'm still considered as a cheap labour - or maybe, in their eyes - we are. Slaves which should not be too bothered about and does not deserves to strife to live in the life as they are. Therefore, It's quite disturbing and somehow, showed me the "togetherness" they have been talking about. It was just nothing but just lip service.

 

With such instance, I made my decision. I need to survive and at where I'm now, I can't be dawdling in my life no more and I should have a bottom life defined by myself, rather by someone with the nature of belittling their subordinates.

 

On a more relaxing note, from my point of view which I believe everyone will concurs with me. The 2010 Word Cup which is towards the end  will be won by the Germans. They are strong in teamwork, fast on the attack and a dedicated defences had caused upsets to several teams who happened to be favourites before the World Cup such as England and the Argentina. Therefore, don't forget to watch it...

 

 

Cheers,

 

Andy "Shackks" Ooi

A fall from the sky...

What happened as a pleasant surprise a few weeks ago, has now becomes a disappointment now.
 
Few weeks ago, i was told that I'll be confirmed and also promoted to  another level on the corporate leader. This tidings brought happiness and makes me felt that the efforts and self-believe i gave into this job are  worth it after all - not only for the self-satisfaction. I've started counting the days and hoping that the incerment of my monthly remuneration  are good. Hopefully, able to improve my current financial standings so that 
I'll be a lil' more comfortable.
 
After a few weeks, all those hopes and happiness began to evaporate so  quickly as it came. Everything was like going back to square one and all of a sudden, my enthusiasm for this job has gone away. I received news that the  increment was nothing more than a mole-hill which, in my very own opinion, was not of the promoted level. I felt humiliated and insulted by the increment. I was being consoled that what I heard was just rumours and nothing is concreted yet, therefore, I started to seek solace in those consolation, hoping the real thing would be better that what I'd heard earlier.
 
Yesterday, the real thing came. I saw the paper and the rumour turns out to  be true. The deal was passed out with ink and seal. This time, my pride was totally crushed after seeing the words used in the letter and the figures of my incremented salary in the black print on white thick Conqueror Paper. But then, I reluctantly added my acknowledgement. Never understand why had I done it nor what is the consequence that will be later.
 
I was rash to seek comfort in many irrelevant minds hoping that someone might shed a light on what to do next, however, I can sense such will only bring undesired consequences in the very near future. One response even had a hint of sarcacism by saying that I should be happy that position gives me free glamour and my dissatisfaction can be easily be erased with my branded accesories and my costume jewelleries. No matter what response I've received, I still felt that the increment I've received was in the form of a package - a Buy 1 Free 1 package. I can't justify this action and the increment given to me. Some felt the same way as I do while felt that it was how they are. The environment here is really true to the saying "You pay peanuts, you get monkey".
 
I'm still weighing on the option if I should bring this matter to my superior's attention, hopefully, she'll be able to do something for me. However, I'm quite sceptical on that and kept thinking about the way I'll be mocked by her. i wonders if this has beaten my confidence that I now no longer has the strength to walk forward on my own. Working in such environment wasn't that comfortable at all and for countless of times, I did think of ending my employment here, hopefully, will free myself from the dreadful feeling I've been going through everyday.

 

So, what shall I do now?

 

Shall i go and give it a try, or shall I bow down cowardly?

 

Cheers

Andy "Shackks" Ooi